I fucked up.

Big time, most likely. We're in debt, near broke, I've been a flake with the bill paying because it crushes my spirit. Now, my marriage is most likely over. Down. Bottom. Black hole.

Why was I so stupid? Why couldn't I just get shit done? It wasn't malicious or on purpose. FUck. It can't be over because of the kids, I will endure anything for them, I can't be separated from them, her mom is in fucking New York and I have NO prospects over there, I'm just starting to make money here.

Why do women leave empowered and men are left crushed?